All (of us) dream, but not equally.

Those who dream by night, in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity:

but the dreamers of the day are dangerous,
for they may act their dream with open eyes, to make it possible.

T.E Lawrence

In a sense the hateful choose to live in darkness.
They must dislike the light.
Anyone who chooses differently must be an insult to them.

M. Scott Peck

Happy Birthday Trampled Rose.....

If I Could Tell You

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
Time only knows the price we have to pay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

If we should weep when clowns put on their show,
If we should stumble when musicians play,
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

There are no fortunes to be told, although,
Because I love you more than I can say,
If I could tell you I would let you know.

The winds must come from somewhere when they blow,
There must be reasons why the leaves decay;
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

Perhaps the roses really want to grow,
The vision seriously intends to stay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

Suppose the lions all get up and go,
And all the brooks and soldiers run away;
Will time say nothing but I told you so?
If I could tell you I would let you know.

W.H Auden

It seems that's not all there is.

My greatest gift is my greatest folly but I just wanna feel true.

"Giving means extending one's love with no conditions, no expectations, no boundaries.

Peace of mind occurs, therefore when we put all our attention into giving and have no desire to get anything from, or to change another person.

The giving motivation leads to a sense of inner peace and joy that is unrelated to time"


G.G Jampolsky


I failed this once before. Now I'm doing it unnoticed and unacknowledged and I think I like it better that way.
Your little brother (real little, the other one's older than me) told me today that "sometimes people have to grow up before they can sort out arguments"& "sometimes you can realise something but you don't wanna admit it" & "maybe when you are 30 it will be okay"

I don't think so. I will not be filled with hatred and you seem to know no other way, maybe when you're 30.

(wise family you've got)

Soundtrack - An extremely enlightening compilation called "The Danger of Community Pressure"

"Follow The Bouncing Arm"

She's here
(Christ, when's she not?)

Waiting on a simple shred of beaurocracy.
A Bond Form.

I'm here.
(Not often)

on the front step
in my Virginia Woolf jacket.
(Oh, what Virginia means to me)

I can hear the birds and the cars still...
haven't pressed play yet
coz MP3's do a scary job
of nothing being random.

What song, dead rose?
dead rabbit? Here goes.

Free. Of course it is.
I should know by now but I'm still surprised.

"It's okay if you can stand to let him dance
It's okay, it's your right, come on and take a chance" Cat Power

Ah JC.

"One thing's for certain, when it comes my time,
I'll leave this old world with a satisfied mind" Kris Kristofferson

And to remind me what I am left with. What a gift.
I treat him better in a minute than you
did his whole life....

"There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No I never heard it at all
'Til there was you" Peggy Lee (singing)

"A movie script ending" ending
ending.... Camera Obscura

And My saviours.

"Mystery and wonder did light up the valley
To be beat back by dark clouds and a harsh reeking wind
And that battle staggered through 3 awful months there
To stop for a minute
Just to start up again"

"I have grown tired of the struggle
And i've grown tired of making plans
I think i'll quit to the valley
Regain my strength
And start again"

"There is glory in our failure" A Silver Mt Zion (B4 they went tra lala)

And the anthem of the whole F@#king debacle.

"What a sad trick you thought that you had to play.
But I don't blame you" Cat Power

"I hope you hear me
I can’t stand you next to me
Get lost goodbye
I’ll smile before you cry" Camera Obscura

And finale'

"Is that all there is?" Peggy Lee

The Beautiful Girls I look after and love......

Madeline Jade -- [noun]: A person who has the ability to be invisible 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

And..........

Lily-Anne -- [noun]: A poltergeist sent back in time to change the course of history forever 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Today's Universal Synchronicity - (just a little one)

I was eating soup with the mother of these gorgeous young girls (and my dear friend) Shellos, and we were discussing the many skills severely lacking in the girls' father (compassion, consistency, patience, a brain) when she called him a "CROUTON bastard". Now I'm quite used to her personal version of speech and find it a neverending source of humour but the weird thing is she had only arrived 10 mins earlier and had no idea I was making croutons (Which I usually forget about and burn!) Well had she not said what she said : "CROUTON" and actually said what she meant to say "Crude, rotten" then my croutons would have, in fact, burnt. So thankyou Shellos & Thankyou Universe.

N.B - One child was at school and the other fast asleep so they do not and will not witness our sledging of their father. We will remain diplomatic for their sake. I think we have a harmless a.k.a now though, don't you? he can now be referred to, in their presence, as CROUTON!!

(And yes Amy, there were delicious!!)

For Da Soldiers

"Here dead lie we because we did not choose"

Here dead lie we because we did not choose
To live and shame the land from which we sprung.
Life, to be sure, is nothing much to lose;
But young men think it is, and we were young.

A.E Housman

I'm really starting to like Housman. Still can't get past my drunken pal Bukowski and the girl in the tree young Miss Dickinson but Housman is becoming my friend.

I think war is ridiculous. I also think peace is unattainable while we all keep pretending we are not one 'n the same.

My legend of a Papa Li has just been "recruited" to convene and implement a taskforce for returning soldiers. Uno, from our ridiculously exploited participation in the War Against the Countries who are Slightly Tired of Years of Being f*#ked over by the US led by Christians who aren't Christians? I say good luck to him, if anyone can do it, he can. Didn't expect another war tho hey. Thought he could probably retire seeing as the old diggers are dying off. No such luck. Ah well.

Still cannae' sleep but getting an awful lot done.

Unpotted, Repotted and Parasite Free

Mercy me, I think I'm back.
Redirected, unaffected, and thankfully parasite free.



Silly girl I can be. You're only sposed to help those who help themselves (Uno it). But I learnt. Boy did I learn.
And I have my beloved T-Man along for my eternal ride and could... not.... possibly....wish... for... another.
And it's nearly Jesus'Birthday!
I love Christ(mas).
Or Festivus or Mithmas or whatever the hell it is.

Two of the intelligent young men who will be celebrating at our table cum 25th maintain that it's not really Jesus' birthday (and one maintains that he is, in fact, Jesus!) But I don't need technicalities (rife in my life with the T-man) nor do I need an excuse to celebrate Haysoos; it's just nice that everybody else will be joining me.
(Well except for the jews. and the muslims. and the consumers. and the gentiles. and digression unnecessary)
I just want to say that from what I've heard of Mr Christ, I have not (and not for lack of trying) found anyone else ever I would want to aspire to and in this sense, he is, indeed, my saviour. Yah.

I have been desperately but quite necessarily exploring this situation that you people call life in order to fill the void my sweet green friend has left.

Fifteen years Mary-Jane 'n I clocked up and I can't say say I haven't been in mourning (wouldn't b here without her) but now I actually get to see the morning (and the night and the afternoon and all the hours in between) ;unfortunately Mary-Jane is cross at me since I said tatala and she is punishing me by stealing my nocturnal bliss.

Thankfully my Beloved T-Man is on holidays and can be the brigadier of the Elyssium brigade most times (except when he's playing with his best friend Quake, ah look I forgive him, I'm sure it's nice to revisit his old cyber pals since every single thing he owned GOT BURNT UP)

So the nightmares suck, I'm severely sleep deprived (which can b a more fun drug than anything) and I LOATHE change but all in all I am kickin' life's ass Wokka Wokka Wah Wah.

I now eat. I now cook. I now smile. and I garden. Boy do I garden. Methinks me knows me's entered a lil' more mature way of thinking (ie. I'm gettin' old) when I get oh so excited about finding worms so I can put 'em in my compost! But hell we need food and frankly Safeway(tm)(see:totally munted) ur shit just ain't cutting it.

Apart from I love stuf, today I got some very good news (which I'm having trouble accepting)In 2 months I will be an official ABA (ie. Applied Behavioural Analysis) therapist and I have been invited by a wonderfully wise woman to practise at her therapy and healing centre.

I am already a level 2 Reiki therapist and soon I can combine it all to help n heal my wonderful autistic starchildren. It could be a dream, though. I guess we;ll see. Waking Life 'n all that. Ah but I blah, sleep dep'll do that.

Oh and by the way, Uno how people for years have cruised around with sandwich boards, ringing bells and such, proclaiming the end is nigh? well it actually is this time.

(metaphorically speaking of course, YOU HEAR THAT CATHOLICS! DO YA.. YOU'd WANNA)

So, anyway, if you know what you gotta do and you're just not, get on with it already. Time is a'tickin on.

Quotes of the Day - "Nobody realises that some people expend enourmous amounts of energy merely to be normal" Camus

"F@#K normal" Elyssium

"He who despairs over an event is a coward, but he who holds hope for the human condition is a fool" (?) Camus again maybe? I didn't write it down.

Now Playing - The sounds of one mighty sweet (yet slightly pompous) boy doing the dishes. FRICKIN' FINALLY.

I Thank the Universe For - Aforementioned boy and My girls plus their girls and well, I think I finally appreciate being alive again so ah, thanks for everything.

Tra lalalala

Man these things are accurate.
I know people who just keep doing them until they generate something they like. No such necessity here!

Why do people run from Elyssium Earth?

You can hear peoples thoughts and constantly talk back making you seem like a crazy person

'Why do people run from you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Indeed

In what alternate dimension would Elyssium Earth be most comfortable?

In a dimension where... Life is fair

'In what alternate dimension would you be most comfortable?' at QuizGalaxy.com