Well, well, well -

shaving the legs,

straightening the hair (tryed to dye it, and that was grrreat, still smells like peroxide but I cain't see no change)

painted my toenails red

bought a new delicious black nighty (one that perfectly hides my over 30, not enough sit-ups, beerbelly)

SATIN SHEETS (uh huh) A present from his mum (have I finally found the dream MIL?)

(vaccuuming,

polishing,

defrosting the corned beef (yeah, home style cookin 4 my man)

jumping up and down..........

WHY? Lonely days are gone, baby's comin home but no he didn't write me a letter!

Flight tomorrow. My lover has been workin' interstate for, oh, 8 months now. Mad cash, but MANNNN.

A couple a weeks here and there he returns and everytime it's totally "I drove all night" ala Cyndi Lauper.

I can never sleep the night before and even tho he works 12 hour days and has long flights he jumps into his ute and drives 4 hours to my little country town.

And this time. This time. It's for good.

Or as he says FOREVER AND EVER.

Forever and ever? What like Jane Austen? or my grandparents? SHEESH. But I think I'm ready.

Saresy here is not a stranger to deadbeats. Saresy here has got some wierd "but I can see the potential" complex. So many times. Too many times.

So I jumped off the wagon. Simple.

I said if you want me to be alone, I will be alone.

If you don't want me to be alone, I'm flagging here buster, please send me an intelligent manly man (I KNOW?! few and far between in my experience) but one who also understands my beliefs.......

Doesn't try and make me prove it or tear it apart or laugh about my Jesus thang.

So tired of the conflict, I don't hafto prove nothin, cowboys-

"TO ONE WHO HAS FAITH, NO EXPLANATION IS NECESSARY

TO ONE WITHOUT FAITH, NO EXPLANATION IS POSSIBLE"

St Thomas Aquinas.

And he came.

And he's comin back.

And he's gonna come :)

And hell, gals, SO AM I !!!

HOORAY FOR US